I Must Be Overcome

I want to live with the desire of a thousand years in one heart. I want to shun the pride of a thousand fears trying to tear me apart. I want to know the passion of a thousand tears from a Perfect Heart. I want to know the dreams of the One who dreamed of and created me.

I must be overcome.

I want the clarity of purpose, the tenacity of focus, the life-giving sustenance of self-discipline for the sake of Someone other than me.

I must be overcome.

These insecurities have threatened to destroy me for years. The choices of a fearful heart have produced a thousand regrets. Even with all of my strength I cannot ignore or overcome them. I need the strength of One stronger than all of them, stronger than all of me, Someone with perfect strength that cannot be overcome, Someone not afraid of any impossibility, even me.

I must be overcome.

I need more than I can offer. I need redemption for all of my mistakes. I need much more than the hypocrisy of a double mind and half-hearted life. They are all the same: hypocrisy, double-mindedness, and half-heartedness. Hypocrisy is a double-minded man living nothing more than a half-hearted life.

I must be overcome.

I have had more than enough of complacency. Its song is not so sweet once the chorus is forgotten and the verses are understood. It gives less than it could ever promise and leaves me poor in every way but regrets. And when self-pity joins its song, I become self-destructive and the months are not as memorable as I had hoped they would be or He had planned them to be. Could it not be said that by surrendering to complacency that I am devaluing the gifts of time, Jesus, and everything else God has given me?

I must be overcome.

I cannot be successful in any way short of surrender to the Perfect One. If I am successful in nothing else- friendships, romance, career, writing, or anything else- let me be successful in being overcome.

Not as though I had already attained, either were already perfect: but I follow after, if that I may apprehend that for which also I am apprehended of Christ Jesus. (Philippians 3:12)