The Gloaming (Poetry Version)

In the twilight of faith In a darkening hour When the wick is all but spent I have become A reed bruised But not quite bent. With pain that screams louder Than the Name I have only heard rumors of In my haste I let my hope leave While I continue to grieve My former [...]

Whispering Fears

The whispering fears echo the loudest Reverberating through my mind Like ripples of trepidation That want to keep me off balance Doubt attempts to overwhelm me And crown itself the proudest Resident of my heart Leaving my steps of faith Behind in the distance. Memories of forgotten victories Are lost among the drudgery Of more [...]

A Prayer for Stillness (Psalm 46:10-11)

    I need Your whispers To speak louder Than my complaints Your soft answers To turn away my wrath And offer restraint Your words To overtake my thoughts Your wounds to heal my pain And Your grace to cover my shame.   I surrender the violence Of my confessions To the silence To be [...]

Comments On My Writing

(I wrote these thoughts on my writing many years ago and my perspective has not changed.) In the midst of a culture filled with pain, hopelessness, selfishness, confusion, and every evil work, there is an honest (though sometimes whispered,) longing and cry for Truth.  Entrenched in a subculture of Christians who know the Truth but [...]

Descend and Wallow

[I started this poem some time ago during a time of severe depression. Due to the often therapeutic effect of writing, I found I couldn't finish it then as writing it began to cheer me up. It is finally done and although admittedly a dark piece, I pray someone finds hope from it.]     [...]

My Mirror the Punching Bag (Part II)

The Perfectionist’s Redemption Indeed, such a mirror does exist, and its truth far outweighs any self-incriminating thoughts I could have or condemning thoughts from anyone else.  This mirror is the Bible. James 1:23-25 says: “For if any be a hearer of the word, and not a doer, he is like unto a man beholding his [...]

My Mirror the Punching Bag (Part I)

  The Perfectionist’s Lament I will forgive anyone for anything except myself for not being want I to and should be.  How I hate the foibles, flaws, and faults I try so hard to hide but all my efforts cause me nothing but frustration and angst.  When I fail to measure up to expectations, especially [...]

The Monotony of Suffering

  Suffering can be dangerous.  The choices we make in suffering can easily alter the course of our lives.  There can come a point in one's time of affliction where we allow ourselves to become so used to suffering, so overwhelmed by its demands, so exhausted by its continual presence, that it becomes monotonous.  Our [...]

One Smile Away

I am overwhelmed By every glance from you Overcome By attention never anticipated I am overrun By thoughts of what could be And completely overtaken By the memory Of the smile That brought my heart To its knees. What do you think When my expression Appears nothing more than pensive? When my interest Seems nothing [...]

If It Meant…

I would gladly run around In the circles of your silence If it meant One day we would collide And find out what could commence. I will avoid your gaze For as long as it takes If it means Your eyes will become devoid Of any mistakes In finding mine. I would ask God’s help [...]