Mesmerize

Eyes of blue

I would gladly drown in,

A smile that grabs hold

And never lets go,

A confused and insecure heart

Searching for endless praise

I desperately looked

For the key to,

A laugh as intoxicating

As the sweetest dream,

I wanted to always last.

For countless days

I have been found

Lost in wonder

Of every thought of you.

 

A heart fractured by your absence

Cut to even more pieces

And even smaller size

As years go by

Found in brokenness

I can’t mend.

All I can do

Is remember and

Mesmerize.

 

Days of yore

Gone forevermore

The thoughts and purposes of my heart

Severed and torn,

Forsaken by all,

But not by me.

Full of unrequited longings,

Unanswered questions,

And endless sighs,

Words you will never see

Or even care to.

All I can do

Is pray and

Mesmerize.

 

Eyes of fire

That consume the hurt,

The past,

And all of me

A smile of love

Which welcomes without end,

Grace-filled arms that grab hold

And never let go,

A perfect heart

Seeking and wanting my own

Even if shunned by all others,

Not despising the brokenness

Nor disdaining the shame

And all I feel.

 

Tenderly You reveal

Your passion was not in vain

But beckons me to yield

To something beyond the pain,

To see You make all things new,

And perfect that which concerns me,

Giving beauty for ashes

That will remain

Long beyond the pangs

Of my rememberings

And all of the doubt, truth, and desires they comprised.

 

No matter the depth of anguish

From my long-cherished dream

And the truth of its demise

That still haunts,

You say Your love cannot be extinguished

Or daunted,

And remind me

You never left me bereft

And will never forsake me

Or leave me eternally disheartened.

All I can do

Is silently kneel at Your feet,

And by Your Spirit’s strength

Lift my grieving and grateful eyes to You

To be overcome

Not by the reality of the travesty

But the glory of Your majesty

And

Endlessly mesmerize.